Awesome!!

Wohooo!! Finally! I have my internet back online at my home! #feelingjoy Going to start to write posts again. Though i doubt anyone will read it. Well, doesn't matter. At least I have a place to share :D

Many things happened for the last two months. *deep sigh* But, behind all those things. I learned a lot! seriously A LOT!! Starting from the responsibilities given to me from my leaders yet I have to leave my old post to open a new harvest point here. Though I'm alone, it doesn't mean I'm really alone. I believe that God is with me and He will do the impossible! I invited my neighbor childhood friend to come to our youth service last Sunday, and turned out that he actually came!! :D though he was late like 1 hour and 50 minutes.. But, I have faith, that God will do something great in his life!! #amin!!

Inhale joy exhale sorrow

And, ermmm.. I'm sorry for being selfish. I truly know what it feels like. Being totally in love, and being left all of the sudden. I promised you many things yet only a few that I could make up to you. Though we aren't close, doesn't mean I don't think about you. Be better not bitter. #smile

Far from sight, close to heart

Lately, I've been bullied by a woman. Funny, how she bullied me, yet I couldn't resist. #laugh
Let's see how it will turn out to be. Either way, I will keep on track with God's way.

"Like a city whose walls are broken down is a man without self-control" - Proverbs 25:28

The best is yet to come

i just got back for 1 week picnic trip to my sister's place at jakarta. It's amazing when you know God works in mysterious ways. My brother told me to come with them to JPCC and i decided to go with them. amazing! i got to see sidney there. My brother said lucky me, was able to see sidney was a good experience, but i'm glad i learned a lot there. the preaches was good, and of course i shopped a lot :D

but that's not the end. dad and mom gave me a little surprise. and so did my brother :D

still, im waiting for the announcer appliance response.

1 Peter 5:7
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

i wont worry about it anymore because i have faith :)

and, ermmm.
i feel guilty, i wasnt supposed to act so arrogance.
no matter what will happen later, i will be nice to all of you :)

Realized

Found my self lying on the cold floor
As I tried to collect my self
I realized the reason I fell asleep
Was because the numbness I felt inside
Grow tired of all these
As I can't deny what's in the mind
I love and missing you already
Gotta wake up to face real fact
You aren't by my side anymore
Though we are apart
I never really leave your side.


Going to sent the appliance today. Wish me luck.
Yesterday was exhausting. After presenting, I played futsal with youth members. Talked a bit with ci Dewi, and got a bit motivating preach. I will give more from now on. :|

Got a sudden plan coming up tonight. A friend of mine asked me out. I wonder what he want to discuss. At least, I got a free orders :9 :D

be well yeah :)

Happy Sigh!

Got my facebook hacked by stranger sometimes ago. -.- Finally made up my mind to create a new ID and it's finished. But I have to re-add all my friends which is quite troublesome.

Anyway, all preparations are done except I haven't put my voice sample into my usb drive.

Pray the best for me. Let God be with me too o:)

Erm, looks like I have to sleep earliy tonight.

I'll be presenting this week's announcement together with my senior presenter, Ci Vina.

Looking forward to a better experience tomorrow morning.

Happy 66th Independence Day!!

:D

Ou yea.

I've been thinking alot.

I miss you tempe goreng~

:p

Drink much water,

Keep healthy, but don't be too healthy :p

*round round*

*karaoke*
masih ada cintaaaaaa di hatiiii~ >.<

*dance dance*

Save Our Soul !!! (Ps: Help me!)

I've come along way~
and here I am!
It ain't hard, but I need help here!
Geez!

Okay, in case you don't know what's happening here. I've been recording for my voice sample. It's a necessary because they want to hear my voice. And, maybe part of this mess is because of my fault too. I've become this monster called 'Perfectionist'. And, I'm so hard to be satisfied. I want more! I have attached my laptop with several technologies to improve the recording, used a lot of software, done some research and all!
What's less??!!!!!
-___-"

okay okay, let's calm down a bit shall we??
I need all the prayer that you can give me here. Please! I need it! :D

And after some typing, I feel I can do it, somehow.
Off to continue the recording! :D

Aiming High

These past few days were tough for me. As I got a little problem with parents, and I had to struggle for designing which I thought, was hard. And I was a bit spoiled, therefore currently facing some economic problems right now. *Tehee* :p

Anyway, have done the CV designing and currently on 55% for the letter of appliance.
I can't do anything but to pray and give my best. Into Your hands I surrender.

I've taken some steps closer, though it's still so far away though.

And, I don't know..
Can someone tell me is it wrong what i'm doing right now? :|

I.....

Hello again, my dear blog.

This time I wanna share a LOT!!

I really wanna cry right now!
Geez!! i know i'm a man, but somehow! it's just not fair!
i need to shed tears too, don't I?

Okay, lets start with like 2 months before my birthday.
I lost some one precious to me, just because of my mere selfish decision )':
I cut all the connection with a woman i once loved.
ironic, i still love here. but in the end, i always remember the words she said to me:
"i don't want you to hope too much from me"
and the desire to text her back got swept away. :(

and all the problems with the leaders. thank God, that now i can overcome all the negative emotions that were once blown up inside me.
and i just apologized to my leader last saturday.

okay, the ironic thing is,
i cant move on, i still long for her.
and the words she used on me, i used it back on this girl that likes me :(
im so sorry, but i can't.
i still love her.
:(

and now, i really miss you a LOT!
i wanted to text you, but i couldnt think straight. all i do is when i got some time, i checked on the contact and saw your name, clicked it, and just see your picture.

maybe, radith is right: this is the feeling of "Orang yang jatuh cinta diam-diam"


then again, i dont know if you read this or not.
I LOVE YOU.
i never had the chance to show it to you.
but, i do. 'til now. :')

be well, drink much water, try your best there to fit the environment.
use english if you have a hard time picking the best word to describe something :)
don't be sick yeah :)
keep praying yeah. i'll pray for you too :)
until then, i will give the best of me too :)

*hug*

Cyea
God bless

This thought I have in mind

Hey pimple! You make my nose looks bigger!

The first pimple after 5 months without them *desperate look*

Last Sunday was awesome, led the crowd a bit, and rapped. Though I finally completed the lyrics, I forgot the 2 last line of the lyric and just rapped randomly. The good thing is, no one knows. Or maybe it is bad, because no one understands it in the first place :|

Hum, I have been kinda not my self lately. This feeling of losing someone this time is a bit different from the others before this one. I thought I could handle it easily, guess I was wrong. I still long for her. But, this is not the time yet. I will just keep walking in Your path. Cause one day, I will come across a woman that You created from my rib again in the right time, and the right place. So, I will not come any closer to women for the time being, at least not crossing over a serious line.

To everyone who read this post.

Study well.
Do well.
Keep healthy.
Keep on praying and always be in God.
I'll see you around.

Cyea

It's sunny today. 10.30 in the morning and I just woke up from my sleep. Gosh. What a holiday.
Where's my manner?
Hello to whoever who read this post.
I'm Robby and I'm back with my second post from this new blog of mine.

Yesterday was amazing! Though I made terrible mistakes when I sang :(
Ps. Petes as preacher told us that every decisions and actions we make now will define our future years ahead. I take it true, cause the action I made that 26th June brought me to this time when I really regret that action and I do honestly really miss you. There's no escape from that.

Anyway, today is mom's birthday. I'm going out later to buy some items to make masks cause this week's theme is Mask Festival, and I'm going to buy cake too for mum's birthday surprise.

O yea! I was invited to a sweet 17th party, and I went there last night. Took me one and a half hours to finally found the right present while waiting the rain to stop. And as usual, I was late. The thing is, when I got there, I just waved my hand at the birthday person, and she walked to me and asked me: "Ko, lu e bantu wa co MC o?" which means, she asked me to become her party guide. Then, since the birthday person herself asked me to. I answered the offer and I guided the party. though I still lack some important parts. Thanks God the party was successful. It was a nice experience. and a step closer to my goal :D

Live in funny world, season changing

Hello everyone. This is the first post for the new blog I made. Because of afraid any 'weird' rumors spreading, I deleted my previous blog. So long my 4 posts T.T It's funny when you do something and people always complain it. like they could do better yet they do nothing, and all they do are talk! mere talk. :|
Well, there are more then 6 billion people on earth. and there are more than 6 billion ways to express people too :)

Anyway, has been 3 days since last time I posted something in my blog. It appears that nowadays, we are experiencing season changing. Which for me, is GOOD!

I was still inside my residential and I saw leaves were falling down from trees. Thank God it wasn't trees that were falling. And, our place here look so beautiful with the falls. For 18 years I have been living in this place. And, I'm so thankful that I was born and raised here, I don't care what people says. I just love this town so much. Putting aside the crazy traffic jam and all the reckless drivers of course, though I'm one of them :p

Talking about Medan. I'm thinking of a project right now. Though I lack the tools to realize my thoughts, I believe I can make it come true

And, the process of learning is good.
Pray the best for this 2 weeks.
These things are scaring me. :|
And I need prayer support from whoever is reading this.
Thanks a lot.
Gotta go and fetch mom now. She has finally returned.

And, hope we can do breakfast together tomorrow.

Cya until next post, God bless :)