Realized

Found my self lying on the cold floor
As I tried to collect my self
I realized the reason I fell asleep
Was because the numbness I felt inside
Grow tired of all these
As I can't deny what's in the mind
I love and missing you already
Gotta wake up to face real fact
You aren't by my side anymore
Though we are apart
I never really leave your side.


Going to sent the appliance today. Wish me luck.
Yesterday was exhausting. After presenting, I played futsal with youth members. Talked a bit with ci Dewi, and got a bit motivating preach. I will give more from now on. :|

Got a sudden plan coming up tonight. A friend of mine asked me out. I wonder what he want to discuss. At least, I got a free orders :9 :D

be well yeah :)

Happy Sigh!

Got my facebook hacked by stranger sometimes ago. -.- Finally made up my mind to create a new ID and it's finished. But I have to re-add all my friends which is quite troublesome.

Anyway, all preparations are done except I haven't put my voice sample into my usb drive.

Pray the best for me. Let God be with me too o:)

Erm, looks like I have to sleep earliy tonight.

I'll be presenting this week's announcement together with my senior presenter, Ci Vina.

Looking forward to a better experience tomorrow morning.

Happy 66th Independence Day!!

:D

Ou yea.

I've been thinking alot.

I miss you tempe goreng~

:p

Drink much water,

Keep healthy, but don't be too healthy :p

*round round*

*karaoke*
masih ada cintaaaaaa di hatiiii~ >.<

*dance dance*

Save Our Soul !!! (Ps: Help me!)

I've come along way~
and here I am!
It ain't hard, but I need help here!
Geez!

Okay, in case you don't know what's happening here. I've been recording for my voice sample. It's a necessary because they want to hear my voice. And, maybe part of this mess is because of my fault too. I've become this monster called 'Perfectionist'. And, I'm so hard to be satisfied. I want more! I have attached my laptop with several technologies to improve the recording, used a lot of software, done some research and all!
What's less??!!!!!
-___-"

okay okay, let's calm down a bit shall we??
I need all the prayer that you can give me here. Please! I need it! :D

And after some typing, I feel I can do it, somehow.
Off to continue the recording! :D

Aiming High

These past few days were tough for me. As I got a little problem with parents, and I had to struggle for designing which I thought, was hard. And I was a bit spoiled, therefore currently facing some economic problems right now. *Tehee* :p

Anyway, have done the CV designing and currently on 55% for the letter of appliance.
I can't do anything but to pray and give my best. Into Your hands I surrender.

I've taken some steps closer, though it's still so far away though.

And, I don't know..
Can someone tell me is it wrong what i'm doing right now? :|

I.....

Hello again, my dear blog.

This time I wanna share a LOT!!

I really wanna cry right now!
Geez!! i know i'm a man, but somehow! it's just not fair!
i need to shed tears too, don't I?

Okay, lets start with like 2 months before my birthday.
I lost some one precious to me, just because of my mere selfish decision )':
I cut all the connection with a woman i once loved.
ironic, i still love here. but in the end, i always remember the words she said to me:
"i don't want you to hope too much from me"
and the desire to text her back got swept away. :(

and all the problems with the leaders. thank God, that now i can overcome all the negative emotions that were once blown up inside me.
and i just apologized to my leader last saturday.

okay, the ironic thing is,
i cant move on, i still long for her.
and the words she used on me, i used it back on this girl that likes me :(
im so sorry, but i can't.
i still love her.
:(

and now, i really miss you a LOT!
i wanted to text you, but i couldnt think straight. all i do is when i got some time, i checked on the contact and saw your name, clicked it, and just see your picture.

maybe, radith is right: this is the feeling of "Orang yang jatuh cinta diam-diam"


then again, i dont know if you read this or not.
I LOVE YOU.
i never had the chance to show it to you.
but, i do. 'til now. :')

be well, drink much water, try your best there to fit the environment.
use english if you have a hard time picking the best word to describe something :)
don't be sick yeah :)
keep praying yeah. i'll pray for you too :)
until then, i will give the best of me too :)

*hug*

Cyea
God bless