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Hello again, my dear blog.

This time I wanna share a LOT!!

I really wanna cry right now!
Geez!! i know i'm a man, but somehow! it's just not fair!
i need to shed tears too, don't I?

Okay, lets start with like 2 months before my birthday.
I lost some one precious to me, just because of my mere selfish decision )':
I cut all the connection with a woman i once loved.
ironic, i still love here. but in the end, i always remember the words she said to me:
"i don't want you to hope too much from me"
and the desire to text her back got swept away. :(

and all the problems with the leaders. thank God, that now i can overcome all the negative emotions that were once blown up inside me.
and i just apologized to my leader last saturday.

okay, the ironic thing is,
i cant move on, i still long for her.
and the words she used on me, i used it back on this girl that likes me :(
im so sorry, but i can't.
i still love her.
:(

and now, i really miss you a LOT!
i wanted to text you, but i couldnt think straight. all i do is when i got some time, i checked on the contact and saw your name, clicked it, and just see your picture.

maybe, radith is right: this is the feeling of "Orang yang jatuh cinta diam-diam"


then again, i dont know if you read this or not.
I LOVE YOU.
i never had the chance to show it to you.
but, i do. 'til now. :')

be well, drink much water, try your best there to fit the environment.
use english if you have a hard time picking the best word to describe something :)
don't be sick yeah :)
keep praying yeah. i'll pray for you too :)
until then, i will give the best of me too :)

*hug*

Cyea
God bless